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Tuesday, December 02, 2003 Here Comes A Storm In The Form Of A Girl Things have been rather quiet in this corner of the blogosphere as of late. Not that I don't have a lot of things on my mind, just that I wasn't able to put them into words until now. I've made the decision that I'm finally ready to get my shit together and apply to Goddard for my MFA. I've decided on the transformative language arts program, featured here: Transformative Language Arts Program I don't think I could manage to complete a program just in creative writing. Not that I'm not creative, more like this program just feels right. I want to incorporate myself into my thesis, and this program will let me do so. I'm not sure exactly what aspect of transformative language I want to focus on; perhaps something involving an aspect of faith or religion. I'll have to see what I come up with. In the meantime, I'm focusing on getting my personal statement written by Christmas, and working up the courage to visit some professors at Juniata for advice. What prompted this sudden interest in furthering my education and investing in myself? A few things. Homecoming--I miss academia. Juniata was my home for four years, and I miss it. Not so much the place itself, but I miss the people. I miss the papers. I miss the reading and the classes (what few I attended), I miss learning. The time--its been almost 3 years since graduating from Juniata. If I don't get to grad school now, I'm not sure I ever will. I would regret not going back to school for a masters degree. Finally, and probably the most important thing--I've spent so much of my time since graduation cutting ties and getting myself out of things--out of my parents house, out of Citibank, out of debt (haha!), out of living with Coconut, that it's time to put something back into myself. Furthering my education is the best way to do that. I've been in a rut--my job is in a rut, my thoughts have been in a rut, my romantic life has been in a rut (I mean, I change men like underwear, but it's the same old story--find one, have a bit of fun, it ends...I'm tired of that). I need to focus on myself, focus on my writing, why its been the one consistant thing in my life since whenever I can remember, why it makes me happy to write, what I'd like to do with that...it's time for me to stop the internal monologue of it and put something out in the world. Goddard is calling to me; I haven't felt this compelled to be somewhere in my life since high school, when I stepped onto Juniata and I knew that was where I had to spend the next four years of my life. I just know that this is where I need to be, and it's time to stop knowing that and take the appropriate steps to get there. I've been reading quite a bit of Jeanette Winterson lately. I want to write like her. Her books are so detailed, storylines woven intricately together--her books are works of art; they are beautiful. Reading her books, I feel inspired, and I feel like I fall so short as a writer. Other random thoughts in my head--beer is good, I haven't a clue about relationships, it's really cold in the apartment since the cats destroyed the plastic that was insulating the windows. I think it's time to go to bed and curl up under the blankets. posted by jaime | 11:11 PM 0 comments |
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